more updates later.too lazy.

:)

its been so long since i last post.so much has happen for the past few days. on friday,i went to snow city with family and relatives because one of my aunt can get us free ticktes.so went in there.and i dont wanna go in there again.b..i tanak gi situ lagi.so takya ajak i. its freaking cold that i thought my nose gonna fall off from my face.hands and toes were numbed eventhough i put on thick clothings and socks and gloves and even boots! but the slide was fun! didnt stay there for long.i was the first few people to leave that place.outside,drank hot chocolate to heat up my body.then had macdonalds and went to grandma hs and home sweet home.sorry,i got no pics for that day.

saturday was another fun day.went out early in the morning for breakfast with family.then bought last minute things for my brother whos going for NS on monday.and mummy bought aloot of munchees for my holiday on wednesday.so walk around jurong point.then went home.because im soo smart that i didnt bring along my purse with me.home.took my purse and off to seri hs.lepak2 there,did aloot of catching up:)also no pics.because we were so unglam at her room.so no cam-whoring.

sunday was an awesome day.spent with love.went to town.he bought for me bantal for my trip on wednesday.i told him that if im angry with him,im gonna take the pillow he bought for me and torture it.like voodoo doll.the pillow was super cute and fat like him.hahaha.then super late lunch at nasi ayam penyet.sedaaaap!! den walk around.went to haagen daz ice cream.bought 3sccops of it.so yummy! babe,i nak lagi:) then sit and chill and talk.then trained to chinese garden.walked slowly.sit under the viod deck for a while.and home sweet home. pics below.there are also pics which i took at home with Mr Cow!

Monday was a sad and touching day,mostly for brother and parents.my mom cried when she had to leave him at the camp.so what happen was woke up damn early on that day.and the best part,i sleep late before that.and bro couldnt even sleep the night before.so dad drove us to pasir ris.had breakfast at white sands.then went to the meet-up point.took a bus to the ferry terminal then took a ferry to raech the base camp.was seperated with my brother for awhile.family members were shown around the camp area.daddy said that it was so different from his time.daddy has to sleep on thin matress while brother get to sleep on king koil bed.haha.then went to the auditorium to see the guys took oath taking and lunch.the last meal we had with them before the two weeks in camp.then the guys had to stay while family members had to leave already.hugged him and bid farewell.mummy gave him aloot of advice.i just told him to take care,dont fight with anyone and have fun.errr...maybe the last part was out of point.when we walked away,me and mummy looked back to see my brother.he was so sad to see us leave.the others also were sad to see their love ones leave.i somehow can read their mind,'if only i can follow them...' if u saw their faces especially my brother,mcm kesian gitu.damn pitiful.then i imagine myself when its love turn.i will be soo sad.why must he be a sinagoprean?then he dont need to go for NS and i dont have to leave him:( so took a few pics before leaving my brother.

thats all folks! i will be leaving Singapore tommorrow.so i need to get packing.i will return on next tuesday.so dont miss me so much.

Dear rasheed,

i will be gone for about 1week.u take care of yourselves.dont forget to eat your meals.do your revision every night and sleep early.dont wake up sooo late and be late for school.i wont be there to msg you or wake u up.i promise for only this 1week.if can,i will call you or u call me every night on my mummy's hp.email me everyday so i know hows your day has been.i will miss you so much.sooo sooo sooo much.i cant bare to leave you but what other choices do i have.dont worry too much about me.we will meet up again when i return back.if i saw things that are nice,i will buy them for you.i bring along our picture,the watch u buy for me,the ring you gave me.and of course Mr Cow that i will hug so tight.he will replace you for the next 1week.i promise you,only 1week.when i return,i will hug u tightly okie.u take care of yourselve.takmo macam-macam.and behave yourselve okie.i tanak dgr pape yg tak baek when i return.i love you alot.muacks!

xoxo,ain.

finally,

time to chill.

catch up on my korea show which i have not watch for so long.

meeting up few people.

b..meet up soon.sunday k.kite beli bantal. :)

i syg u :)

seri..aku nak jmpe kau.lame tak jmpe.

and readers,i will be away from 17June to i-dunno-when.

dun miss me too much.especially asheed:(

till here.

xoxo,ain.

what you said to me yesterday really got into my head.those words were like a slap that hit me in the face.do you really mean them?every single words?the way u speak and express it tells me that you really mean those words.as if those words came straight from your heart that you have kept it for so long that i finally came out from your mouth.am i such a nuisance?am i such a burden in your life?am i really making things hard for you?am i making your life harder?never in my life i could imagine the person i love the most say those things.do you think or even give a small thought about my feelings when you say that?when i say that to you,u reply me 'what about you?as if you are that perfect?' i never say those harsh words like you did to me.never in my life i have even the slightest feeling or thoughts that you are such a burden.how could you..? i know you are angry.but do u really have to say that?the other day,you did the same thing.after hearing what you have said to me,i really feel useless.now,im feeling shitty. finally,it came out from your mouth.finally i know my place.finally i know what am i to you.i dont know you anymore.i dont recognise you anymore.sometimes i wonder wheres the old you,i try to find him but i fail.i cry every night till fall asleep.i have lost you.

1st paper was bad.i cant do every question correctly.