k,didnt update last night.lazy and tired.and baby went to hospital again.but luckily did not get admitted .i was planning to visit him if he's admitted to hospital.a you know,meet him yesterday.we web cam.and our face ask for smacking sia.he will kill me if he know i publish them.hahaha. k,my lappy batt is flat.so let the picture do the talking:)

thats all.will update soon:)

i love you,especially abdul rasheed

get well soon dear:)

im worried sick thinking about you.

i miss you.

meet up soon okie!
makan nasi ayam lagi.

xoxo,ain.

i got monday blues again.i got S&W.i am so not a tennis player.and i got CATS after that.im always late for theclass.mind you,my tennis was held at the tennis court across the school,across the expressway.of course i need time to change and to walk from tennis court to the class.and its at block 72.damn effing far!im always last to reach there.so just now,chiong all my way there.change fast fast.walk fast fast.n mission accomplished!im not the last one:) and and and,finish school already.i know right,very early.but meeting Mr Rasheed to pass his medicine and study with him.Talking about studying,i need to study PRONTO!!i got 2 quizes coming up.one is IBME which i havent study for it yet.i thought only need to memorise the medical terms,but i am soooo wrong.its the whole of chapter 1 and 2.and i got engineering mechanics also for the whole of chapter 1,2 and 3.im okie with 1 and 2.but 3 will just kill me.i think its gonna pull my marks down like crazy.and to know that i got both test on the same day can drive me crazy.but im so looking forward to meet him this afternoon:) yay! so i will update later on at night.depends whether im free and not lazy.heh. have a good day

xoxo ain.

Time check,its 12.35.i know i should be in my lala land now because i got school tomorrow morning.but no,instead im having maggi cup noodles,sitting infront of my lappy playing games that ive been hooked on for days. So Saturday ,went out with love,to town then vivo.fun!!i had fun. Bought new clothes for myself and get love his belated birthday present which i owe him last time due to short of money. First,at town.decided to meet him there straight.so i did not take the train but instead i try taking the bus.the bus ride was pretty fast.but to wait for the bus can kill me.i waited for so long that i saw 2 of my aunts!and to my surprise they are taking the same bus as me.so text baby and say BEWARE!!hahahaha.luckily they allight the next bus stop after mine.so meet him at marriot hotel.the plan was to send his watch for repair but since we were near far east,decided to go there first.bought bubble tea.weather damn hot.but baby couldnt dring because of his sickness.only plain water ok dear?straight away enter the shop that i previously chect it out.bought two tops for myself.YAY! i LOOVEE SHOPPING!!! So walked around.then went to heeren to repair baby’s watch but did not do it.so i wanted to eat at puncak.haha.walked back to far east.while walking,mummy called.she knew that im in town with baby.so i answer it.she say she’s also on the way there.i was so happy.i told her we were on the way for our dinner.perhaps we could meet and treat us.but sadly no,it never happen.my mom is with my aunt and grandma!!!ahahah.who brings grandma to orchard road.MY GRANDMA IS COOL!! FYI,my parents know about baby,but not my aunts and uncles and grandma.so walked to far east.ate wanton noodles.then train to vivo.enter river island.bought for baby polo shirt and shoes.hope u like the present i get for u. den walked for a while.bus home.in the bus,full.got seperated with baby for a while coz i really want to sit down.hahaha.den finally he got a sit.and we kept changing seats.heh. and home sweet home.on the way home,something funny and scary happen.only me and baby know


To dearest baby,my rasheed,my love,my laughter,my everything,
Im glad we got back together again.i know relationship has its ups and downs and i let you go just by looking at our downs and not the ups.im really sorry.i would never do it again.and im so happy that we got back together,stronger than before.we have not been arguing for so long.and im glad u are still the same selengeh bacen asheed i know for the past 1year4months getting to 1year5months soon.yes,its been that long we got together.my love for you has got stronger and deeper.Life is empty and meaningless without you in it.i promise you that i will be by your side through thick and thin.and i know,u are sick right now.i will be here with you going through this period of time together.and i know this year is your busy year,and i will be by your side and im trying and making time for you to be with you and help you in any other way that i could possibly help.i love you alot.and i miss you.

i really don't know what i want.should i hang on to him or should i just let go?both of us wont be happy together.i don't like the way he acts now and he don't like the way i act now.maybe the breakup is for the better of us.even if we continue this relationship,i know both of us are lying to ourselves.i once think of leaving him so that both of us could be happier,but i did not dare.im afraid if i turn back,i will effect his future.im the reason he's been studying hard now.but now,he's the one that asked for it.but how could i let go of him easily?how could i forget about him easily?we spent 1year4months of our lives together.many things were shared.many sacrifices were done.many memorioes were left and the love that we have built.how could i find another replacement of him?he,who treats me like a princess,putting me first instead of others and even his live.he,who thinks of me when he first woke up from his sleep.he,who thinks about me before he sleeps.he,who will call me every night and talk to me till i fell asleep eventhough he's really tired.he,who i can be myself be crazy infront of him.he,who i could tell him every of my thoughts and feelings honestly.he,who is always there for me when i need someone the most.he,who love me whole-heartedly.he,who showers me with care and concers.he,who is not a perfect guy that has many flaws but still the right guy for me.he,who i argue and fight but will still love each other by the end of the day.he,who i love the most.but now,there's no more of that.i did'nt hear anything from him.no phone calls or text message.and its about time for me to let go of him,so that he can lead a better life without me.he dont have to think about me first and finally has time for himself.maybe time will heal this wound.but i know that i wont forget about him because even the wound can be cured but still left a scar that stay permeanantly with me.i have to move on with my life but i wont forget him coz he's once been part of me and my life chapter. goodbye,love.i will miss you.

xoxo,ain.