Date : Thursday, October 8, 2009
Time : 6:00 AM
Title : i need you,boo.

i had another sleepless night.
tossing and turning on my bed.
i dont know why,
but i got insecured when i heard you going out to study with another girl.
i dont know why,
i got jealous when you said you love another girl.
eventhough you dont mean it.
if its not true,why must you publish it till now?
its been days already.
i tried hiding my feelings,
but i couldnt help it.
i know i shouldnt feel this way
and be really happy for you.
i must try harder,
to act as i dont care.
and even harder,
to avoid you.
but i'm just a lovefool,
who keep coming back to you.
i cant erase you from my mind.
i cant delete you from my heart.
i told myself over and over again,
not to contact you.
but i couldnt bring myself to it.
i couldnt let go.
couldnt let go of you.
couldnt let go of our history.
couldnt let go of what we built.
lots of things been happening.
lots of things are bothering me.
i need you by my side,
so that i can stand strong.
i need you by my side,
so that i can cry on your shoulders.
i need you by my side,
so that i can seek advise from you.
i need you by my side,
so that you could hug me tightly
and whisper to my ears that everything is going to be ok.

you misunderstood me alot.
people around me dont hate you.
they just protect me from getting hurt again.
but i know,
that it wont happen again.
but right now,
everything is going the exact opposite way of what we planned.
thats why i couldnt tell them about you.
but after that day,
it was so magical.
i knew i have to tell them the truth.
but i couldnt do it anymore,
because you took it wrongly.
im sorry.
really i am.
i never hate you,
they never hate you.


i pray.
i hope.
i wish.
that you will be by my side again.
maybe not now,
but never say never.
because i know,
deep down in my heart,
we are meant to be together.
as you once told me,
only death do us apart.