what you said to me yesterday really got into my head.those words were like a slap that hit me in the face.do you really mean them?every single words?the way u speak and express it tells me that you really mean those words.as if those words came straight from your heart that you have kept it for so long that i finally came out from your mouth.am i such a nuisance?am i such a burden in your life?am i really making things hard for you?am i making your life harder?never in my life i could imagine the person i love the most say those things.do you think or even give a small thought about my feelings when you say that?when i say that to you,u reply me 'what about you?as if you are that perfect?' i never say those harsh words like you did to me.never in my life i have even the slightest feeling or thoughts that you are such a burden.how could you..? i know you are angry.but do u really have to say that?the other day,you did the same thing.after hearing what you have said to me,i really feel useless.now,im feeling shitty. finally,it came out from your mouth.finally i know my place.finally i know what am i to you.i dont know you anymore.i dont recognise you anymore.sometimes i wonder wheres the old you,i try to find him but i fail.i cry every night till fall asleep.i have lost you.