i really don't know what i want.should i hang on to him or should i just let go?both of us wont be happy together.i don't like the way he acts now and he don't like the way i act now.maybe the breakup is for the better of us.even if we continue this relationship,i know both of us are lying to ourselves.i once think of leaving him so that both of us could be happier,but i did not dare.im afraid if i turn back,i will effect his future.im the reason he's been studying hard now.but now,he's the one that asked for it.but how could i let go of him easily?how could i forget about him easily?we spent 1year4months of our lives together.many things were shared.many sacrifices were done.many memorioes were left and the love that we have built.how could i find another replacement of him?he,who treats me like a princess,putting me first instead of others and even his live.he,who thinks of me when he first woke up from his sleep.he,who thinks about me before he sleeps.he,who will call me every night and talk to me till i fell asleep eventhough he's really tired.he,who i can be myself be crazy infront of him.he,who i could tell him every of my thoughts and feelings honestly.he,who is always there for me when i need someone the most.he,who love me whole-heartedly.he,who showers me with care and concers.he,who is not a perfect guy that has many flaws but still the right guy for me.he,who i argue and fight but will still love each other by the end of the day.he,who i love the most.but now,there's no more of that.i did'nt hear anything from him.no phone calls or text message.and its about time for me to let go of him,so that he can lead a better life without me.he dont have to think about me first and finally has time for himself.maybe time will heal this wound.but i know that i wont forget about him because even the wound can be cured but still left a scar that stay permeanantly with me.i have to move on with my life but i wont forget him coz he's once been part of me and my life chapter. goodbye,love.i will miss you.

xoxo,ain.