life seems empty without you.

i know by doing this is my greatest mistake,and im starting to regret it.but wjat can i do.he's not contacting with me.no phone calls or text message.i hear nothing from him.but i have to force myself to stay strong during public.but when night come and im alone in my room,tears starts to roll down my cheeks.he doesnt like me to control him,i let him go out with his friends,but why cant i put the picture and add my own friends to my msn.i still remember that last time,u did let me put up that pic.can we have a very understanding and mature relationship.im jealous lookin at others who totally trust each other whole heartedly that nither both of them got angry when the other add someone to his/her msn.its not that i want to get to know them better and replace him to them.i dont have any intention to do that.the reason why i ask for a time break because i want u to trust me whole heartedly.im not gonna go on dates with them.i only see them as my friends and they were a year younger than me.i know u feel insecured since i enter poly,but i know my limits.but why cant u understand and trust me.why make a big fuss about them adding me and putting up that pic?i only want u back.to understand me and fully trust me.can u do that?i got no intentions to replace them over you.but know,its all over.its all too late.i dunno whether there's still a chance between us,whether i can have you back together with me in my live.

i still love you.and i miss you alot.

xoxo,ain.