this post is for bf,asheed.

these past few days ive been worried and sad for bf.he was aimless and lost with no directions to go.i felt that it was really unfair as he still got the drive to tudy but was not given a chance.going for ns was his only option.and im not ready to let go of him.i know one day he still have to go,but not now.i think its time for him to concentrate on his studies and making a brught future.but not anymore.im currently feeling very happy.and realief.he's taking private 'O' and will be deferring his ns.so tat's a good news.but a bad news fof me coz i said to him that if he did not have to go to ns now,i will treat him dinner.and now...dang~so bye bye $$.hahaha.but its okie.i baek tau b..... when i end my 'O',im so clever that i threw away all my notes.and now im helping bf and im having a bad time.but lucky got seri.she still keep her notes.so im asking her to give me and i will photocopy and pass it to baby.and now,since im free all the way till end of april when poly starts,i will be helping bf with his studies.he got lots of cathing up to do.and im willing to spare my time with him.and when i help him,i get to meet him.so i will be seeing his bacen face nearly everday.best or wat??! i will make sure he will do well and enter poly.after he end his course,he have a chance to go higher nitec.but wat a waste,he's not intrested in that course.so he switched to another course but theres no vacancy left.and finally i knew wat is in his heart.he wants to be the same standard as me according to academic wise.and he thought that thats the onli way.sp he tried very hard.he pray for it.but God is neither deaf nor blind,He know his people need help and turn to Him.and maybe He doesnt set bf life journey to go to ite nitec then higher nitec den ns den poly.He show him a path,a shorter route to get to the same destination.and that is private 'O'.and its now up to bf to make full use of it,to work really really hard and be in poly with me:) now bf know how it feels to be aimless and lost when he could not get to any ite and dissapointed when he did badly for 'N'.and i hope he make full use of this and not to make the same mistake.asheed,behind every failure,there;s a sucess.u may face alot of setbacks now but the future will be bright for you.ingat tau ape i cakap ngan u k oat fone tat nite.and dun be sad anymore.im here.i will support u and i will guide u and i will help u in every way i could think of.

i loove you,abdul rasheed.