finally,tat singtel person came and repair my internet acess and i can use lappy back.

however,shit happen in life and sometimes we can fix things back to where it used to be.but currently i dont think i can do that anymore.the problem was way toooooo deeeeeep fix.blame my mouth for saying things without thinking.i used a really really stong word to him that was soo strong to bring tears to his eyes.and despite millions of sorry i said could not make him forgive me and act as though nothing happen and be happy together again.but i was too mad.i hate him hangging up on me.and ke keep doing it.like yesterday night,he hang up and did not even call me back.in fact he went to sleep despite my zillions miss call.and this morning,he went out without telling me.he never did that to me.and when he called,he's angry coz i talked to my sisiter for a while.i know that his hp got problem.but he did hang up on me,not his hp fault.i heard him say pape lah and press the btton to hang up.and i got pissed and say mean hings to him.and now,he wont forgive me.he wont even listen to me.he wont even text or call me.i bet he wont even read this post.damn~ and i got no other way to talk and apologise to him.blame me for not thinking before saying anything.and i did the exact opposite thing compared to what i swear to him.may all the bad horrible terrible deadliest things happen to me.

i know im wrong.im sorry.i loovee you,abdul rasheed.