Date : Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Time : 10:35 AM
Title : its a blast!

once again,im at work.sneaking arnd just to use the com.today is my last day of work.im still hoping that they need help arnd the office so i can work here again.im so used to the environment.waking up every morning,trained all the way to farrer park.eat indian food like nearly every day.and today it come to an end.im so gonna miss this place.damn~



k,stop it with the sedih part.yesterday was a blast.it was just another simple date with bf.but i had a great time.and i think asheed has too.tak gado2.tak mara2.tak majok2.wohoo.first2 plan he nak fetch me from work.den standard die lmbt.do meet at dhoby ghaut.k,i was late.i sengaje.haahhaahaaaa.so went to vivo.look see look see.went to esprit coz i like dis one top.den takde.wahalaueh!den go to other shops.setiap kali masok kedai,mesti bumped into bf frens.and its the same person.hah!k,bought a top at forever 21.den makan pat burger king.asheed malu2 meow meow.die ckp die tanak mkn lah,dah kenyang lah.but i dont care.i juz treat him a meal.sweet nye aku oi.k.mkn oat rooftop.so windy2.ade bnyk bdk2 mepek and asheed members.hahaha.k,dah gitu,chilax pat situ.cume ade 1 star aje.sedih.den counting down to kite nye 1year.punye cepat.a few more days je.present blom beli.i juz hope asheed plan a nice surprise.mcm picnic ke.or something.cant wait cant wait cant wait!!!


k,so im stressed counting my money.sedig.lagi brape puloh je.rsk.k,need to find another job.maybe carik ngan asheed.his school also start on april.kalau tak dpt keje,nmpk sah kite due lazybums.hahahahahah.asheed,go beli newspaper!kite job-hunting.hehehe :)



till here.i need to complete my work.tsk.dah last day.boss nak blanje lunch.ape lagi,mintak mahal2 uh.heh.bye lah.





i loove you,especially abdul rasheed.

Labels: its coming soon love.

Date : Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Time : 10:01 AM
Title : plans for x'mas.

helle hello.currently working.i dont have to say anything kan.yes,i sneak to use the com.prangai toot sia ain.heh.

so tmr christmas eve.not working.yessuh!!can go out.so baby,tmr okie!and plans for christmas will be bbq pit.hope it will not rain uh.like everytime i go there for sure rain.tsk!i hope it will be fun.aku dah mcm org christian pulak.nak celebrate ni semue.hahahahaha. :)

update soon k.boss dah stare uh.mcm tau je die tu.

i loovee you,especially abdul rasheed.

Labels: lets go.

Date : Monday, December 22, 2008
Time : 11:41 AM
Title : working.

so currently at working place.slack sia aku.actually need to do work,but i senyap2 use d com.heh.not that my house takde com,but by the time i go home dah penat.tros mandi,tros makan den watch tv,tok on fone den sleep.no time to use my lappy.k,so many things had happened.and i can only remember wat happened recently.

the other day,i cant remember which day.me and the whole family plus relative went for a short weekend trip to mersing and melacca.dont ask me where is mersing coz i also dunno where is it.k,quite fun.but been missing bf.so bought for him a little something that he always want.so sweet kan.


k k.next.yesterday,went to watch soccer singapore vs vietnam.wahlau!singapore kalah.damn pissed lah.bodoh nye blondie.he tried many many time to score but cannot.goal dah depan mate pon takle score.asheed maen lagi bagos.heh;) so angry lah.den i got seats pat tmpt fanatic.ape lagi.maki2 lah.point2 finger.and maki2 lagi.my parents even join in.hahahah.imagine mummy scold buto pat diorg.hahahahahah.so fun.but kalah.tsk!so lets wait wait for the next 2yrs.


and now me at work,kene do this job.data entry.den ade vietnam.tros naek marah seh.teingat d match ystd.hahaha.ain fanatic singapore!!

i got to go now before my boss marah.so update really soon.

i loovee you all,especially abdul rasheed.
i miss u baby.lets meet up soon ok!

Labels: stupid vietnam.

Date : Saturday, December 13, 2008
Time : 12:00 AM
Title : busy.

sorry for not updating as much.was busy with work.balek keje tros tdo.den bangon just to et,mandi and talk on fone den sleep again.tats my cycle for a few days ago.den my last weekend,i cant remember what i did.heh.

so,this weekend,im going to Malaysia.gonna miss bf like crazy.gonna miss my bed like alot.but i bring my bantal busok along.nnti malam i cannot sleep.im never gonna throw my bantal busok.even if im married.hahaha.

so gonna be back on monday.and im gonna drag going to work.first of all bcoz of 'fluffy'.i told bf abt it.it really creep me out.and i have to wake up early after a tiring weekend.suddenly i miss school.bcoz when im late or early,but mostly late.and atfer a long and tiring weekend,daddy will send me but not now.bohoo.


im signing off.be back on Monday.and i dun think i wll update tat soon.so u guys enjoy ur weekend too.and baby,gety well soon.i know u r not sick but going to b sick.so get well soon.eat more oranges coz it gives u vitamin c.and it helps ur body to prvent fm getting sick often.rst well k dear.im gonna miss u terrible alot.ur watch,picture,songs n love will accompany me along the trip.i love u.muacks!




im gonna miss u readers.i love u,especially abdul rasheed.

Labels: gone for the weekends.

Date : Saturday, December 6, 2008
Time : 2:51 AM
Title : my fairytale turns out to be just a dream.

Why are all this shits happening to me?when everything started to go fine,this happen.after so long,it ended.abruptly.why?what i have done wrong?what ever mistakes i did,u forgive me.but now...WHY?i really don't understand.when everything is going fine,it has to end.u said that lately u feel like u r not ready for a relationship.then,all this while u've been pretending when i thought u were real.when i thought those kisses were real.when i thought those hugs were real.when i thought those words were real.when i thought i found love.when i thought finally i've been treated nicely.when i thought finally i found the love of my life.when i did sins with you.when i thought i dun need anything else because i got u.when i keep thinking of u day and night.when u said that im special.those were FAKE.u are just pretending.why do u want to torture me?why do u want to make me suffer?i know i did some mistakes here and there but do i deserve this punishment?do i?do i?without u,where will i go?to confide my feelings and problems.to share my joy with.WHERE?i've got nothing else left because i just lose my everything.i had NOTHING.last time i used to be sooo rich.i had eveything.i have u.but now.i feel like a living hell.i got no aims.no directions.nothing!no matter how long i say,things will never go back to where it stop.ppl can say move on or life goes on.how do i deal with that when i want to go back to where it stop.ppl can say time will heal,when all i want is to go back in time.ppl can say there are many other fishes in the sea,when my heart is set on u and only u.when u r the love of my life.ppl can say 1day i will forget abt u,when every single thing i do reminds me of u.what do i do now?im really helpless and lost.i feel like im walking in a dark tunnel with no ray of light at the end of it.where are all your promises?where are they?do u know how much i need you?u dont know.do u know how miserable i am without u?do u know that i cant survive a day without u?and im figuring out how do i deal with tommorrow.do u know that i've been planning my future with u in it.hais.

Labels: the end.

Date : Wednesday, December 3, 2008
Time : 9:58 PM
Title : ZOO.

just came back from zoo.had so so so much fun.i dun want to say what happend at first.k,so bus to zoo.start uh kite nye hiking.cheyy,hiking ke pe?hah!eventhough half-way walking around the zoo,it started to rain.lebat pulak tu.so sat under a shelter till rain stop.lucky sekejap aje.then continue walking around.managed to see all the animals.penat oi!bf fell in love with white tiger.he said that he came to zoo just to see the white tiger.then ambik2 gmbr.den rasheed mati-mati want to watch the feeding session for the white tiger.fanatic!hahahaha.k,so walked back.best jugak uh.managed to watch two show.these monkey thingy and sealion thingy.then sit and rest at the new kids world.punye best.mcm nak join gitu:) then play at the playground.we play this boat thingy.and rasheed fell.hahahahahaha.best moment of the day.then play this small flying fox.bf cannot stop.best gitu.then eat at kfc.continue jalan2.and something bad happen when our day at zoo nearly fininsh.so we both did not talk to each other during our journey to my house.felt super super super guilty that i did not dare to talk to him.he was super super super mad that he did not want to talk to me.dah gitu,saket pulak to.head spinning.perot saket.wahlaueh!nak dekat balek,then started talking.k.me made up.then homed.home sweet home.




so picture's up!

Labels: fun.

Date : Monday, December 1, 2008
Time : 11:05 PM
Title : 11months.

HAPPY 11MONTHS!!!!


i never get a chance to say this when i wish him happy 11months in my text message.its really weird.we always send each other messages when the clock ticks 12midnight on every first day of the month.but not this month.and it saddens me more when he never wish me.but eventually he did at around 1+ in the morning.but it's ok.i should let it go and forget about it.

so i want to say this to him.
yes,its been 11months since our first date and first kiss.we have been building our relationship for 11months and still continue doing it.i never get tired of it,instead im enjoying and cherishing every minute of it.all the time and memories we share together will always i keep.i know i have not been that perfect gf u wish or dream of.i do have my flaws.and i hope you forgive me if i ever done you wrong with and without me realising them.i always make u sad,angry,want to give up and many more.i'm really really really sorry.so so so sorry.i never had any intention to hurt you in any way.thank you for putting up with me.with all my attitude.thank you for showing me love that no one has shown to me before.thank you for showering me with care and concern.thank you for always being there for me.thank you for encouraging and motivating me when i want to give up.thank you for putting me in your arms when i feel cold.thank you for your listening ears.thank you for lending me your shoulders when im feeling down.thank you for sharing everything with me.thank you for your understanding.thank you for giving me your trust.i appreciate everything you had done for me.i know sometimes i say things that shows that i dont appreciate you.im sorry.i always speak without thinking.and you have to put up with that.im so so so sorry .i know there are things that you wanted me to do but i have not done it.im sorry.im sorry for always wanting things to go my own way.im sorry for being stuborn most of the time.when you gave me that ring,thats when i realise,our love resembles that ring.just like a circle,it never had an ending.lastly.i loovee you with all my heart.till death do us apart






i miss you,babyboy.meet upsoon because i need your hug and kisses.

Labels: let's meet up soon.